SO CLOSE

Today marks a very momentous occasion for me. 

This is the last day that I will ever walk into a class on the Texas Woman's University campus 

as a TWU student.

It's a little bittersweet, actually.

I've made a lot of really good friends at TWU. 

And aside from facebook, I'm afraid there won't be as much contact with them after graduation. 

I will miss seeing them twice a week.

For the past two years, I have had the same instructor every semester.

I had him for French History.

I had him for Senior Seminar.

I had him for Renaissance and Reformation

*and*

I had him for Religion in an Atlantic World

My kids know that when I talk about 

"my teacher" 

that I'm talking about Dr. Blosser.

He's an amazing instructor and I have enjoyed his classes immensely.

I have had classes in the same building for the past four years at TWU.

The good old A&S building, right across the street from the Human Resources building 

and the commuter parking lot.

Most of them have been in the same three classrooms: 

101, 102, and 103.

Although this semester they decided to switch it up a bit by putting me on the second floor.

I will miss the hour long drive on 380, 

listening to Ira Glass talk to people on This American Life, 

which fills my mp3 player right now.

I will miss going onto campus, hearing the hubbub.

I will miss the library, the bookstore, the clock tower.

I will even miss the stupid elevators in the CFO building.

I will miss TWU

Now, a new chapter of my life will begin.

But I don't know what I will do.

For the past 15 years - well, longer if you count elementary, jr. high, and high school -

All I've Known Is School

Where will I go?

What will I do?

Will I be able to find a job I like in this economy?

Will I be able to find a JOB for that matter?

And if I do, what will happen to my children? 

What if I have to commute every day?

What if my babies need me during the day and I can't be there?

I guess I can finally admit this now.

i'm scared

i feel like my security blanket is being ripped out from under me