You know, being a mom isn't easy. Being a mom that works is REALLY hard - but the bright side is that you generally get a break from the kids for at least SOME length of time. When school was in full swing, from August through December or from January through May, I am cheerful. Happy. I have no issues. I am not stuck at home 24 hours a day 7 days a week cooking, cleaning, chasing, changing diapers, diciplining, yelling . . . you get my point.
Summer stinks. Why? B/C I am currently home 24 hours a day 7 days a week cooking, cleaning, chasing, changing diapers, diciplining, yelling . . . you get my point . . . again.
I love my children. Don't get me wrong. And I LOVE being a SAHM - I wouldn't trade jobs with anyone. But it's HARD. Especially when you don't have a car. I can't even take the kids to the park. Sure, I could send them outside, but they come back inside 5 minutes later complaining that "It's to hoo-ot . . ." in that whiney way children have perfected since the 1st century. At least at the park, they don't have an option. But then, who can blame them, really, I mean it IS 90 degrees in the shade today, after all. And I can't be a hypocrite. I won't send them outside if I won't go outside. That would be just WRONG . . . Okay, well maybe not, but I would feel guilty as all get out.
Plus there's a little issue we're having with money. Yeah, that's kinda a constant, but about once or twice a month, we go through trying to figure out how we're going to scrounge up enough cash for groceries. I have meat in the freezer, pasta and cream soups in the pantry . . . I wonder if I have enough for casseroles and homemade skillet meals to last a week.
I had to go to wal-mart at 2 in the morning to spend $13 we don't have on a box of diapers b/c I had NO CLUE that we were out. THAT was an experience.
School starts in late August. Until then . . . well, you know . . . I need a mommy-break.
I am blogging today only because I feel I need to. I don't really have anything on my heart, but I felt I needed to put SOMETHING down . . .
Well, that's not entirely true. I have a LOT on my heart. Mostly child custody issues. I won't go into our story regarding that here, just because I'm not going to name names on the internet. If I know you, and you want to know what's going on, please feel free to email me and I will tell you all about it. Otherwise, sorry that I can't indulge you any more than that.
Funny that it's not just us -
My best friend is going to court on Friday to get full custody of her daughter.
My brother and his wife have decided to split up - there's going to be a nasty battle there, I can feel it . . .
It makes me ask - what is going on? WHY do people use their children as wepons? That's not why God blessed us with these little people!! We are supposed to love them, and nurture them and care for them . . . We are supposed to guide them in the Lord and in His ways and teach them about Him - WE are here for THEM -- NOT the other way around!
So WHY do these people use their kids to get back at their ex's?? I JUST DON'T GET IT!!! They are SCREWING their kids up for life - AND THEY DON'T CARE!!
It kills me to see children suffer for their parent's own selfish needs . . .
Proverbs 22:6 (NIV) "Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it."
THIS should be our focus. NOT child support, or making "the Ex" mad. WHAT'S BEST FOR THE CHILDREN . . .
I was looking at my children (well, the two youngest since the two oldest are at their mom's) this morning and it utterly amazes me how quickly time goes.
Emily is speaking plainly (if you ever knew her before, you would remember she has had quite the speech impediment). She is also reading 3 and 4 letter words (with help, although she's getting quite good at sight words). She loves to dance and sing, and makes up songs ALL the time. Her hair is down to her waist.
I remember, not so long ago, that I was so worried that her hair would NEVER grow, that no one besides me would EVER understand her, and I never imagined she would be reading. My baby girl is not a baby anymore. In just over a year, she will be in Kindergarten. I am in awe . . .
Jacob is crawling, pulling up, trying to move while holding on to fingers or the couch, has two teeth popping up, eating REAL food, and communicating somewhat with signs and gestures. I can't believe my son is eight months old. It seems like only last week that he entered my world. He has grown by leaps and bounds - he's already in 9-12 month clothes!
I am so enamoured with my children. I feel like God has blessed me so much.
Okay, so the other night, I saw something that made me laugh all the way home from the Wal-Mart parking lot.
I was coming out with a basket full of groceries and noticed a couple of guys gunning their big ol' trucks around the parking lot. Just basically being loud and rude and obnoxious. You know the type, I'm sure. I sat there shaking my head with one word going through my head. As this is a family oriented blog, I won't express that word here, but let's just say it was less than flattering . . . LOL.
So, on my way out of the parking lot, I notice a crowd of people outside the gas station looking at something. Curious, I turned my head to see what had gotten their attention - then I started laughing my butt off.
One of the morons that had been gunning around the parking lot had lost control of his truck, and was stuck on the hill next to the bridge that went over the highway. I only wish I had been savvy enough to break out my camera phone so I could post the pick! It was the funniest thing I'd seen in a while. Now, if he had been hurt, I would have probably been praying instead. But he wasn't, so I found it extremely hilarious!
The one thing that makes me the angriest at the public school system of America is the fact that they are teaching Darwinism (thus - ATHEISM) to our children AS FACT! HELLO!! It's called the THEORY of evolution, people! NOT the "facts as proven by Darwin that we all ascended from monkeys . . .".
What makes me even angrier is the prospect of CHRISTIANS buying into this garbage!! The BIBLE says that God created everything in six days. Period. It is not "symbolic" it is not "well, their concept of time was different then.". It happened in six days. How do I know? God said so. Who am I to question Him?
IF God created the world then where does evolution fit in? God didn't create monkeys and then take one and turn it into Adam. Nope. God created all the animals (yes, monkeys too) and THEN created Adam:
Gen. 2:7 "The Lord God formed the man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being."
Does that sound to you like Adam came from a chimpanzee? Yeah, me either.
So with that in mind, how in the world can someone claim to believe the bible and then claim to believe Darwin too? The two contradict each other - they don't jive! They can't both be right, right?
So who IS right. Well, again, God said HE did it all, and as he is the Almighty, I really choose to not question him. In fact, I have this thing where if I read it in the Bible, I tend to believe that's the way it is. Yup. Even Noah and Jonah. Everything that Moses did? I believe it all 100% happened. Every bit of it. In fact, MOST Christians I know have these same beliefs. So . . . if they can believe everything else in the Bible happend just as it was written, then why is it so hard to accept the fact that the Bible is right and Darwin is (was?) wrong??
I will never say that people that have different beliefs than I do aren't Christian.
HOWEVER, I DO think that any "christian" that believes a word of Darwin's "theory" should REALLY re-evaluate their faith . . .
Would you like to learn more about the theory of creationism versus the theory of Darwinism? Click here for more info.
I am freaking out over the prospect of my precious little one starting school. I was okay with preschoo, I could walk her to class, hang up her back pack, give her a kiss, give her a reminder, have a brief hello with her teacher, that kind of thing. Kindergarten? Different story. I have to leave my precious bundle at the front door (if even that close) to fend for her self with the possibilties of her getting lost, hurt, beat up, robbed, sad, have an accident, blow up in the middle of the hallway WHATEVER in the midst. Just thinking about it last night made me cry myself to sleep. What am I going to do? I know I can't be there for her ALL the time - she's going to have to learn to fend for herself in that dark, bleek jungle out there that we call the public school system. But it doesn't make it any easier.
See, I have two major fears. One, that my child will follow in her momma's footsteps and be an outcast. Two, that the school will fill my child's head with a whole lot of BS that I can neither fostor nor prevent.
Okay, so the outcast thing. This is why I'm worried.
I watch my child interact with other kids. She always seems to be the one shunned. She will be off playing by herself. "Emmy," I'll ask. "Why aren't you playing with the other kids?" "Because they don't want me to play." "Well did you ask?" "They told me to go away".
This happens every time. In school, at parties, at family functions, in the park. I just want to bawl my eyes out to think about it.
My little girl is the sweetest child on the planet (to other kids, anyway). She wants to play, and doesn't mind doing anything that anyone else wants to do. She just wants to PLAY. She is so beautiful and smart and sweet and I just want to scream to the world "WHY can't you see what I do in my baby??" Jake, I have no fears for Jake. He's a flirt (you should have seen that infant making eyes at his cousin yesterday, LOL). He's a tough kid. He'll be alright. Emily, well, she kinda wears her emotions on her sleeve. If they get stepped on, she'll crumble. We're working on this through Love and Logic Paranting (I'll go into more detail about THAT in another blog . . . after I finally get the book). But it doesn't change my fears. Maybe I'm too overprotective of her . . . but it breaks my heart.
Now, as for the other reason I am afraid of public school, that's another blog. Maybe I'll get to that later in the day. I'll leave you with this thought, though - Atheists rule our school's curriculum. Don't believe me? Read your child's science book when school starts. There is a particular theory that you will see is being taught as fact. The theory of creationism (here's a link for you to read up a bit) is not even being brought up b/c it is a CHRISTIAN CONCEPT. Hmm . . . don't get me started. I have to go make breakfast and a cup of much-needed STRONG coffee. I'll rant about that later.
I am married to a wonderful man that is the love of my life. I have two amazing kids and two wonderful step children. All of my babies keep me on my toes - and then some! i love to sing, am a recent college graduate (!!!), and have a really great personal relationship with Jesus Christ.